There is a lot going on right now, and I’m feeling uber stressed. My brain’s running a mile a minute, but I don’t seem to be getting anywhere! And it’s not only wedding stuff that’s freaking me out, but LIFE stuff. For example:
-I am changing jobs mid-September
-I am moving out of my current place mid-September
-I have to get ready to pack my stuff
-J and I have to finalize where we’ll live after our wedding. It looks like we’ll get our place September 1–so that means organizing that move, finalizing the finances
-I’m moving back home with my parents for a month before the wedding
-And at the same time, I’m experiencing a lot of interpersonal changes–I have to say goodbye to my roomie, Z, and I think I’m having separation anxiety; I have to say goodbye to all my co-workers, who have become my friends; one of my friends is moving back to Vancouver next week; and as I get closer to the wedding, I’m coming to the realization that I have to officially say goodbye to my family and start living with…..a boy. omg.
Not to mention…
-I still have no hairstylist (this has been one of the MOST frustrating aspects of this planning. Will vent…I mean post about my experience!!!)
-running into barriers booking a make up artist for my engagement shoot, which is in 4 days!
-i still don’t have any jewelry to wear
-we still don’t have wedding bands
-we still have to get our marriage licence
-we still have to buy our favours and make the boxes (yes. from scratch)
-and a whole shitload of other things
-And to add to this crap, J and I might not be able to afford a honeymoon after all. With our pending move and all the money spent on the wedding, I just don’t know if I want to fork over another few thousand right after the wedding. I dunno. Am I being cheap?
Richha, our wedding planner, told me not to freak out because she’s not freaking out, which makes a lot of sense. She grounded me a bit, but my crazy thoughts are filling my head with helium and I am floating away into a stressed out oblivion. Ok a little overdramatic, but, man, I am totally understanding how brides can turn into Bridezillas. With all this stuff running through my head, my threshold for irritation is low, and I think I might start getting a bit snappy and short with people. Eek. Will try to be very mindful of my actions, words, and tone.
My girls have a karoake night planned tonight, and I think that might be just what I need right now. Some good distraction. Some good/bad singing. And maybe some booze. And I should definitely run on the treadmill tomorrow morning. I have been pretty busy this week and haven’t had a good workout.
But, first, I’m going to tame this forest growing on my forehead–aka get my neanderthal eyebrows threaded!